The Last Time

Ayts. Kung dili ko ma down ha. -- March 23, 2011. That was Polens's last text to me. Not everyone knows that we have grown very close for the past year. Call it cyber friendship, but still I find it real. Polens and I have known each other since high school. A nonchalant hi and hello was all we ever been before. But last year, we have grown succumbly close. He listened to me whine. He laughed at my jokes. He stayed awake for me while I was crying. And I loved the fact that our friendship was all about me. He invited me to hang out a few times. I said I was busy. The only activity that we did together was trekking. That was my first trekking. Had I known it was our last trekking, I would have spent more time with you. Last December 2010, sudden turn of events had changed. You said you were sick. And I thought it was a simple stomach pain because of overeating during the holidays. When I got back to Manila days after new year, there was a simple text I received, "EJ, I got cancer." "Holy shit, that couldnt be. You have a healthy lifestyle. You don't drink, don't smoke. And you exercise regularly. Why do bad things happen to good people?" I furiously replied. And all he replied was, "Shit happens, EJ." Perhaps no one knew about the secret friendship that we had. But I was glad I was part of your life. I am glad to know knowing that you had confided in me almost everything - your dreams for the future and the dream about the river when someone almost took you away); letting me edit your CV and letting me know about your kid. I just wish Hannah would be give me pictures of our first date last February 5. It would make so much happy to see you happy. And now I don't make sense talking about nothing at all. But I am glad you always do understand. And probably, it's still gonna be about me. Who am I gonna chat with at night Polens? Who is gonna listen to me whine? Watch over me my suwang angel. Please watch over me. You never said goodbye to me. I guess it is never going to be goodbye coz I will see you again. Maybe not here. Last na Polens, paspas ang interet connection diha? PM me unya ha. I love you. Till then, my friend.