Today, I Thank God!

Today, I thank God for my good health. That I don't have to pay a hundred thousand bucks for a box of pills just to keep me alive from blood cancer. Nor don't I have to drink medications everytime my blood pressure goes up. That I don't have to run monthly lab tests just to see if my heart skips two heartbeats. That my arms and feet would not be amputated because of a rare type of bacteria. Last January 1, 2009, I decared this year, to be my last year of existence. That if I'm gonna be dying, I would sign a DNR (do not resuscitate) form. Or simply this year, I'm gonna die of natural death. But as I geared towards the second month of the new year, thinking that this year would be my last year, scares the hell outta me. It makes me scared since I have a lot of things that I haven't done in this lifetime. I haven't studied culinary arts and feed thousands of people. That I havent' sing in front of an applauding crowd. That I haven't worked in Starbucks' and learn the ins and outs of cofeemaking. I haven't been to Paris, the fashion capital of the world or have a gondola ride in Venice like in the movie Milan, and I haven't been to the Louvre Musuem to satisfy my imagination from Da Vinci Code. It scares me not to see my nephew, Anferny grow. I might be wondering how a beautiful man he would turn out to be.

Little things, like abdominal pains, scares me. I would even rush to the nearest emergency room for a slight migraine. How I could surpass death this year, I could not imagine.